不知不觉 我已经16岁了 我真的好想念以前的日子 以前最烦恼的的事情 至少会像浮云 过一阵子就飘走。有时候 当个不懂事的孩子多好？开心就笑 伤心就哭 不喜欢就闹 生气就给脸色 多容易过一天。
现在长大了 想要过一天都会觉得好漫长。有时想找个很理解我的人谈话都难。虽然我周围的朋友好多 可是我总是觉得自己都是一个人。那个爱笑的我 好像渐渐的消失了 脸上的笑容都不再那么真实 但悲伤的脸却一直出现。 我 到底是怎么了？
好讨厌现在的我 看到家里的情况就…… 心里有很多说不出想法 有时忍不住的时候 真的 会哭得很惨……
这一年 我过得好辛苦 家里状况 经济能力 情感方面 都出现了问题 虽然一直逼着自己不去理会 但偶尔想起 真的不好受…… 但这一年里也曾有很开心的时候 很感谢那些带给我快乐的你们 虽然我没表达出来 但相信我 我心里真的很感恩。
再过几个月 就要升上中五了 我也快毕业了 是有点兴奋 也有点担心 可是我相信我会熬得过 因为都熬过了10个月。现在能做的只有向自己说：“洁颖，你要加油，要帮mummy和姐姐撑下去！” 希望接下来的日子会好过一些，我们脸上的笑容能够再自然的出现，mummy的白头发会少一些。

Trying to do my very best in everything
Trying to cope all the things i'm involved in
Trying to understand what's on those people's mind
Trying to remember how we once was
Trying to be happy like how i once was
Trying to be a person that everyone likes
Trying to appreciate every friend of mine
But now i'm clear that
Even when you did your best not everyone appreciates it
People nowadays are very complicated
Happiness is to be yourself but not trying to please anyone
No one is perfect that everyone will like
They'll still leave you far behind one day
As a conclusion
Nothing last forever. And it's so true about it.
Fcuk it.

《可惜没如果》

"全都怪我
不该沉默时沉默 该勇敢时软弱
如果不是我 误会自己洒脱 让我们难过
可当初的你 和现在的我 假如重来过
倘若那天
把该说的话好好说 该体谅的不执著
如果那天我 不受情绪挑拨 你会怎么做
那么多如果 可能如果我
可惜没如果 只剩下结果" —— 林俊杰《可惜没如果》

如果我们还可以回到当初
如果一切都还来得及弥补...

《等过去》

等一个人，其实并不容易。

如果能夠心无旁骛地等，
是幸运的，也是难能。
很多時候，去到一个地步，
你明知道自己不能夠再要求更多，
是不可以再勉強去前進一步了；
但你仍是不想放弃，
你只好让自己留在原地去等，
盼有一天可以等到那一点奇迹，
自己可以再向前努力、去争取 ......
可是，自己真的可以等得到吗，
每天你都会担心或猜疑，
自己等的人会不会变了，
会不会，已经跟別人一起，
会不会，不容自己等下去；
对方一点的不平常不自然，
別人一句无心的流言蜚语，
都可以让你想得很多，
多得你会开始常常问自己，
真的还要再等下去嗎 ?
等下去，会等得到嗎，
会值得吗，会有意义吗 ?
然后，想得信心与耐心也一并失去，
你让不安盖过自己的理智和坚持，
不要等下去，也不让对方退卻；
结果你踏前了尚未能夠踏前的一步，
结果，你还是只能继续等下去，
甚至乎，连等下去也不再被允许 ......

即使，他仍然在你不远的附近，
但你知道，有些关系不進则退，
有些距離，是由等待一個人而开始渐远。
就算你留在原地，不会走、不会变，
对方还是会在不知不觉间，
随着世界变迁，随着第三与第四者出现，
渐渐走得很远很远 ......
其实你有多想，能夠与他做一对平行线，
永远在他的旁边，守候思念。
在他想起自己的時候，可以立即出現，
在他想要自由的時候，可以保持距離 ......
就在他的背后，默默地纯粹地支持他，
就在你的眼裡，无牵挂无顾虑等下去；
这种相处，是有多么理想，
等一个人，原來可以等得如此自由。
可惜你想等的，始终不是这一点自由，
而是想等到对方牽牢自己的手 ......

只是有時候，

我们连這一对平行线也做不到，

卻仍然留在原地，或离不开或放不低，

等一个不知道会不会回來的人，

等一个，其实并不知道自己还仍然在等的，

旧讯息，旧朋友。

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" You're the light, you're the night
You're the colour of my blood
You're the cure, you're the pain
You're only thing I wanna touch
Never knew it could mean so much, so much

You're the fear, I don't care
Cause I've never been so high
Follow me to the dark
Let me take you past our satellite
You can see the world you brought to life, to life

So love me like you do, love me like you do
Love me like you do, love me like you do
Touch me like you do, touch me like you do
What are you waiting for? "

Just love this song too much <3
Love Me Like You Do by Ellie Goulding

Sometimes wondering if you still remember anything about me
Wondering if I was once the most important person in your life
But I guess not
Now you're on the other side living a happy life
But I'm still over here waiting for a miracle to happen
How stubborn am I
People always tend to only miss something when it's lost
Know how important it is when only you left
I'm so sorry if it once hurt you
Now I'm the one suffering
Missing you day and night

It's time to wake up

He's gone she's gone

The people you once loved and needed all gone

Appreciate what you have now

Appreciate the he and she you have now

No more regrets.

Okay?

Time Machine

If I had a time machine

I want to go back to that day

When I didn't make stupid decisions 

If I had a time machine 

I want you to stay 

Forever beside me 

If I had a time machine 

I want family days

When everyone is always together 

If I had a time machine

I wish we could start everything over

Knowing each other again 

If I had a time machine 

I want back my happiness 

That I always spent with you 

If I had a time machine 

I wish you are still the one

Always there to listen to me 

If I had a time machine... 

Form 4 is not just like what I thought

I thought it would be easier

But no. I am now given so many responsibilities 

Everyday for me is to think think think and think

Being a leader is really not that easy

But the worst of it is that when you need help and you can't find for it

Things in school are already more than enough

I hope my results doesn't drop

Maintaining is good enough

I just hope everything I am going to face will move on smoothly