What is meant to be will be

I always thought it was a good start for me in college life. I never thought I'll meet this day so fast. It's not even half a year yet but things can really change fast especially people. Is it me that I'm not changing? Or is this only the real you?
Trying to enjoy this life, but this life sometimes just seems tiring 😪
I have friends saying I look confident on the outside, but no. That's not true.
People say you have to try everything, you have to accept, you have to learn from your failure but to be honest, who likes to fail and listen to hurting words. I always believe that do what you think is right will be fine but this thinking is killing me inside now. That struggle is true.
The feeling of no one to talk to right now is really bad. Insomnia comes again and things repeat again every single day.
I really miss those people in secondary school. I really really miss them...